Because I know You love me

Today I am feeling a little blah. Not sure why... or maybe I do know why. I believe that I am feeling blah because I am counting on idols (boyfriend, friends, family, money, etc) to make me happy. Obviously it's not working. And I really do know that these things/people will never make me truly happy or satisfied, but I just sometimes forget and start looking to them. And then when they let me down I get in this funk. I was having a pity party this morning and all of a sudden just stopped and asked God to come and fill me. I then began to read some verses, write in my journal, and pray. It's so amazing how God loves me. He never left me, He was just waiting for me to find out on my own that things of this world won't satisfy and come back to Him. But what's really amazing is that He is ALWAYS there waiting. He will never leave nor forsake us, even when we leave Him.
I recently tried to help a friend in need by reading to her a part of the book "Evidence Not Seen." It is a part that I cried while reading the first time and cried again when reading it to her.
The part that I read was when she (Darlene Deibler) all of a sudden didn't feel the presence of God anymore. She became very distraught and begn searching her heart for any sin. She prayed and confessed her sins and prayed more. She then remembered Hebrews 11:1 "Faith is the substance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen". She thinks to herself, "Eveidence not seen - that is what I put my trust in - not in feelings or moments of ecstasy, but in the unchanging Person of Jesus Christ."
On the radio a couple days after that I heard someone (not sure who) say that it is not because we feel it but because we know that truth.
God just spoke to me when I asked Him to help me feel His love and said, my child, I do love you and I have never stopped and will never stop. When you believe that, is when you will feel it.
I feel it :)
Our God is amazing.

When darkness veils His lovely face,

I rest on His unchanging grace;

In every high and stormy gale,

My anchor hold within the veil.

On Christ, the solid Rock, I stand;

All other ground is sinking sand,

All other ground is sinking sand.